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Friday, January 21, 2011

I am a witch in love.

Okay the witch part. I feel so awful for thinking this so I just have to confess my sins.

My big big big boss is pregnant with her second.
We shall call her BBBB.
She announced her pregnancy in a work news letter that she sent out on Christmas Eve!
Meaning 9 days after I called her crying and told her I would not make it to my monthly meeting of assholes. Yes, I explained why. She said "It is okay I understand, have a day or two to relax."

Bitch.

I believe that the reason i miscarried may have something to do with my issues medically. But i also believe that someone is much more likely to miscarry if every morning at 9 am they have 4 voice mails of "Bobi, call me immediately there is an emergency"

And then Bobi calls and finds out that the emergency is that one of my staff members missed a box on their documentation. CALL THAT STAFF MEMBER! Not me. I know nothing about all of that since it is not my job to know.

But Thanks for the heart attack.

Or the meeting I had 3 days before where I was told I was responsible for fixing all of my last 4 bosses mistakes. (Which I still havent fixed because I cant fix 3 years worth of mistakes in a month. Nope. Cant.)

This boss is newer than I am and was only hired in because she is the high school BFF of the other 7 big bosses. Yes, I have 8 people, who do NOT communicate at all, (Well at least not about work related things) who call me constantly and bitch at me for their misunderstandings and their lack communication.

Yes, BBBB my paperwork is late. Why? Because I am locked out of my office (who is also someone else's home) because you promised to send my consumer something, and failed. So in their anger, they have locked me out. Fix it.

3 days later

Yes, other boss, I am locked out of my office because BBBB promised to send my consumer something, and failed. So in their anger, they have locked me out for the last 3 days. Didn't BBBB tell you that after I informed her?

"No she didn't. You should have personally called me!"

"But BBBB said she personally would tell you." And then other boss hangs up and BBBB yells at me for "tattling".

Yes, this IS the immature company I am working for.

Anywho, BBBB is pregnant and heartless. I have noticed she is missing work quite a bit. (Mind you I cant get off work to see my husband for more than 10 minutes a week and had to pull 4 different favors to get off when I had a temp of 103.7 2 days ago) And each time I find myself thinking"maybe she will miscarry and finally know what it feels like!"
Maybe this is because I know she announced her pregnancy the day she found out, or maybe it if just empty oven envy, but I feel awful for thinking it. But my coworkers agree.

Of the last 4 people in my position at work, 3 of them have miscarried. And ultimately, that is why they left. All of my coworkers know this. So, every time BBBB misses work, someone says "maybe it is her turn." or "i wonder if its the baby."

I just feel like an apology is owed, or some common courtesy or something!



Now for the Love.

Does anyone else look at their husband and think

OH EM GEE! THAT IS MINE! How did I get so lucky?

Because I get that feeling at least twice a week. I love him.

Bobi

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Weirdness

So, I am an addict. I wake up with the urge. I fall asleep wondering if I should do it just one more time. I see something on tv, a billboard, a newpaper, and immediately I just have to do it. I feel a pain in my body and I just need to do it.

Yep, that is right folks, I am an exercise addict.

I weighed 110 lbs in 5th grade.

135 in 7th

150 in 8th

135 in 9th

116 in 10th

Then I met my husband.

I weighed around 120 when i met him on June 30, 2006, the day I had my wisdom teeth removed. Swollen and drugged, I went on a group date that ended up at my Uncle's sitting around a fire where my mom told Gee all these awful stories about me and Gee's friend told my mom thet Gee was not sober and had a drug problem. Just what every mother wants to hear. (I thought it was a joke at the time, but it wasnt and within 2 months I had a sober Gee)

At the end of that summer I weighed 145

11th grade i weighed 150

12th was when Gee proposed. So i went on a crazy diet. 1 fruit cup for breakfast, 1 cup of veggies for lunch, 1 sandwich containing meat, 1 fruit cup for dinner. I weighed 125lbs just 4 months after this.

Then we moved out. I started college, I studied and had no time for cooking, so we ate pizza 1 night a week, chicken alfredo and amazing breadsticks 2 nights a week, chinese one night a week and in between we rustled up crap. We didnt even own a scale. We were busy. When we bought our house a year later i weighed
212!

I joined a gym. They said $25.00 a month and i got 2 sessions with a personal trainer. I assumed they meant 2 sessions with him a month. No, 2 sessions for free, then he would charge us $60.00 an hour. But I wasnt told that until after the first month. I had used him 9 times. After everything that I thought was included, our bill was around $800 for that first month. At 19, i bought a home, and my fiance lost his extremely well paying job. We lost $2000 a week in income, I only made like $300 a week! There was no way we could afford that! Hell, we couldnt even afford basic cable or shoes! So, I did it by myself. Somehow every month for those first 6 months i managed to find extra ways of making money. I had a garage sale, we had income tax, i cleaned out my IRA (yes, i was the only 18 year old who had an IRA), I did favors for my mother and friends, and we even sold some of our favorite belongings. I also, went weeks without a real meal. I ate small things, and I worked sometimes 19 days straight, I got down to 184.

Then we got married, which luckily my mother paid for half of, (our wedding only cost us $4000) and then I tried to lose more, but I lost the drive. I started working third shift and it just killed me. I could sleep 14 hours and still be exhausted. Then the husband finally got a job. And then I caught H1N1 which while I only really had it for 5 days, left a lot of long lasting issues. I developed allergies, and my current allergies worsened, I had allergic reactions at work, and it was awful. (Later found out that the place i worked at never informed me that the wall i worked next to, that was covered in plastic sheeting, was growing black mold.)

On New Years Eve I weighed myself. 199 lbs. For a girl like me (5 foot 3 inches) that is rediculous. I will not accept this. So, as I said, I will lose 1 pound a week until I lose 50 pound or until I get pregnant.

Tomorrow is weigh in day. So, to keep me true, and to help me remember, I will post my stats here.

On New Years Day I did:
1/2 an hour of pilates.
TOTAL: 30

January 2:
24 minutes of "Crunch: Sexy Stretches" which is ON DEMAND on Time Warner Cable. (most of these are)
12 minutes of Kendra Wilkinson's kickboxing
9 minutes of Kendra Wilkinsons Booty something or other
TOTAL: 45

January 3:
1 hour of Pilates
TOTAL:60

January 4:
24 minutes of Sexy Stretches
1/2 hour of Pilates
12 minutes of Kendra's Kickboxing
36 minutes of Bootilicious Bod
9 minutes of Kendra's booty thing.
TOTAL: 111

January 5:
24 minutes of Sexy Stretches
1 hour of Pilates
12 minutes of Kendra's Kickboxing
36 minutes of Bootilicious Bod
9 minutes of Kendra's booty thing
27 minutes of burlesque something or other
15 minutes of tae bo something or other
and ran a mile in like 10 minutes.
TOTAL: 193

January 6:
VERY SORE!
24 minutes of Sexy Stretches
1 hour of Pilates
12 minutes of Kendra's Kickboxing
36 minutes of Bootilicious Bod
9 minutes of Kendra's booty thing
27 minutes of burlesque something or other
15 minutes of tae bo something or other
and ran a mile.
23 minutes of Leg Slimmer Toner
32 minutes of Groove and Burn Latin
12 minutes of Urban Striptease
25 minutes of CRUNCH AssAbs
TOTAL: 275 minutes

FOR A GRAND TOTAL OF 714 MINUTES OF EXERCISE.
So, 11 hours and 54 minutes.
Some people will say "IMPOSSIBLE!" but I remind these folks that normally I work 12 hour days and this week, I only worked 6 hours all week. So, I didnt have anything to do. Oh, and that everytime I do anything "Sexy" the husband wants to watch, and I like the attention. Oh, and unless im running or jumping, I do this nekkid. But with socks and tennis shoes. I hate clothes.

So, hopefully tomorrow morning I will remember to weigh myself before I eat or drink anything.

Oh, and calorie consumption....eh one day I ate like 2500 but the rest have all been around 1500 and 1200. If I counted everything I would become obsessed with that too.

Bobi

Sunday, November 21, 2010

SIIIIICK!

I am sick. I hate being ill in any way. I'm coughing, very chesty, headache, muscle aches, sore throat, voice going up and down and some slight wheezing. Oh, and a runny nose that according to my 16 year old brother, could use a tampon. We had just discussed hockey players using tampons after they break their noses.

So, this is a short but sweet update, but i am going to try to post at least 5 days a week until Christmas.

Bobi